This was my first public post through my Instagram ( www.instagram.com/seebexknit ) about our precious baby number four, Lysander Immanuel. I’ve been trying to share about Baby No. 4 for over a month since we learned during a routine ultrasound at 22 weeks gestation that he has many congenital birth defects including a missing limb, conjoined kidneys, ambiguous genitalia, edema, and a congenital diaphragmatic hernia. Another ultrasound with a Maternal Fetal Specialist further confirmed these findings, and at that time the prognosis was Lysander would mostly likely not survive a full pregnancy or long after an early birth. 💔 How do I carry a supposedly dying baby? How we tell our three older kids their little brother is possibly going to die? For a month we grieved and hurt and of course life went on. We also found there is still joy in life, in being with one another, through the kindness of others, in the nearness of God that seems to deepen when one’s heart feels utte...